I hate everything. i dont' care about anything anymore. Except my friends. and even then, the number is shrinking. I just don't give a fuck. Nothing seems worth it. I'm trying to keep it together, trying to be happy, but i just can't. I'm starting to give up. and i want to help people, but how can i do that when i want to kill myself? how am i supposed to tell people to keep hanging in there when I don't know what the fuck to do? when i hate my life? when i'm depressed all the fucking time?
Seriously...why even write. no one even fucking reads this.
what makes it worse is that i can't fucking kill myself because it might cause other people to. and a few people are stupid enough to care about me. who the fuck knows why. i'm not worth it. i'm a horrible person who only tries to be good but fails. i'm a heartless bitch. i hate myself, i hate the world, i don't have any faith in hardly anything anymore.
fuck my life. i just want to fucking kill myself some times.
